Today has been a terrible day and just as I thought I was getting on top of my depression, it seems not. Just as I started to build my self-confidence and thinking perhaps my glass IS half full and NOT half empty (thanks Effie) it appears that I was right in the beginning, my glass IS half empty and NOT half full.
At the moment I just want to go and hibernate for the rest of the year as I don’t think I can cope with any more bad things happening or ill health. Just when I thought the Pancreatitis was settling down after resting for the past couple of weeks, after today it has come back and tonight I am in pain again and just want to go to sleep and not wake up until life decides to treat me fairly as surely I have had enough bad luck this year to last anyone a lifetime.
My goal of reaching the 9st by February seems further away than ever and along with it my hopes of IVF and finally having a baby after over ten years of trying. Someone please give me some energy and some good luck for a change.
Sorry if this post is down and dreary, I promise to try and cheer up for next time, I may even tell you all what has dragged me down again and re-started another Pancreatitis attack.
Until then, I am off to bed to try and get some sleep (can’t see me getting much though as my mind is constantly going round in circles).