Right, I have just come back from the bathroom and noticed some dark brown blood when I wiped (sorry for too much detail).
I am totally freaked out and don’t know what to do, my mind is racing and I can’t wake hubby up as he is fast asleep in the spare room as he has to be up at 5am for work so have no-one to talk to.
I am hoping that this could be implantation bleeding but a big part of me knows that the ICSI has failed and I am not pregnant.
I know I should still stay positive as it may be a miracle and I am pregnant but I can’t. I have spent all day crying as I have been worrying so much about testing on Monday.
Could this bleeding be implantation bleeding, I know brown blood is old blood so that is something but I am dreading going to the bathroom again in case there is more and it is red blood.
I don’t know what I will do if I’m not pregnant, I am terrified that my depression will come back really bad and I won’t get through it this time.
I wish someone would make all of this better and tell me what to do. I haven’t really slept for three days as everytime I close my eyes I see a little baby in a moses basket looking up at me and my mind just keeps on racing. I want a baby so badly and don’t think I can cope with yet another failure after 11 years to failures.
My stomach is all shaky and I feel like being sick and am really panicking, I don’t believe that this is happening, how can it be happening, I have done everything I possibly can to make this work. I have done absolutely nothing for 9 days (since egg transfer) apart from sit on the couch watching tv and knitting. I haven’t even been outside.
Could someone please make this better and tell me what to do.